What is it about feelings that they can be just as ambiguous as insinuating? Signals. Different then and now. Different every time. The look. The like. The touch. The text. The invitation. The request. The anticipation. The acceptance. The validation. The truth. I’ve been meaning to write more about feelings, you know the deeply emotional, […]
Goodbye to All That. Didion does it again. She was 29. I remember when I first visited New York City, I stepped out of the bus onto the curb outside Bryant park and looked up. The lights lit, the city grit, this was it. I turned around and said to my mother, “I want to […]
Yes. I’m here. In The Dam. Sitting in a coffee shop – Brug34 – by the canal. A cappuccino, a mac, a story begins. I’ve been dreaming of this for so many months, of what it would feel like, of what it would be, of what I would think, in this moment. The reality is […]
“I don’t want to feel anything.” How many times do we say this? In conversations fleeting or not, with others or ourselves. How many times have I said this to myself – one too many. I don’t want to feel disappointed. I don’t want to feel hurt. I don’t want to feel anything. Goals of […]
I’ve been feeling a feeling, this whole month, and now that I think of it retroactively, it just makes sense that I felt that way. Comfortable. And that’s a dangerous place. When I wasn’t working, I travelled a bit, spent some quality time with close ones, spent some days in bed doing absolutely nothing, spent […]
There is a deep sense of satisfaction in doing what you love. No, I’m not simply saying this in the ‘big picture of life’ kind of way. Sitting on my bed, wrapped up in my comforter, warm tea and a candle by my bedside, and my Mac on my lap – writing – I’m certainly […]
Every year around this time, I, as I’m sure many of you, reflect on the year that’s gone by – the good, bad, ugly, and undoubtedly amazing! This year has been special for one too many reasons. As fluid as it’s been, I have more than solid reason to say it has, by far, been […]
Who am I? Who do I want to be? Who have I been all this time? About a year back I had somewhat of an existential crisis – ok maybe that is being a bit too dramatic, but truth be told I was at a point where I found myself asking all of life’s hard questions […]
Yes wander, not wonder. When I was young (and free from my self-imposed inhibitions), my most favorite way to spend time was to wander off into the streets, seeking out the adventurous story I would spin in my mind. I would wander off down to the river, pretend I was stranded on undiscovered territory, surviving […]
It’s all you have to live your life. There are days when words come bursting out of thoughts waiting to be put out there in the universe, and then there are days like today. I’m never really at a loss of words, most definitely not at a loss of thoughts – then again maybe I’m […]
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