“You’re a man”, I thought, and then I let it go. “You’re so strong, so powerful”, I thought, and then I let it go. “You’re supposed to act with vigor and virility, you’re a man”, I thought, and then I let it go. “You’re supposed to lead, and I follow, you’re a man”, I thought, […]
Being a misfit had always been a feeling way too familiar to me. And over the years I’d had more than my fair share of emotional battles attempting to conquer it, to fit in. At first I would ask myself why – why am I so different, so ambiguous, so confused. Then I began accepting […]
What are they? Where are they born? Where do they die? Or do they? Can words do justice to the feelings you feel? Or can feelings truly express what you say through your words? Different people. Different feelings. Different meanings. I rarely struggle with words on paper, but to express my feelings I hesitate. I […]
Goodbye to All That. Didion does it again. She was 29. I remember when I first visited New York City, I stepped out of the bus onto the curb outside Bryant park and looked up. The lights lit, the city grit, this was it. I turned around and said to my mother, “I want to […]
Are you there, living and breathing, right in this moment, are you there, here, present… I’m not a big believer in horoscopes, and not too knowledgeable about astrology. In fact, my only connection with it is part of my morning routine, when I skim through the Capricorn section of Daily horoscope. I started reading it […]
Have you ever got that feeling, that usually starts with a thought, or most likely a question – about the unknown, the uncertain? Well that’s me right now, living right in the middle of it, this uncertainty. This post is coming straight from my heart, unbridled, unleashed by a series of thoughts and triggers – a song, […]
For you, a thousand times over… I was always the one to bottle up my feelings. In fact I became so good at hiding all emotions that belonged to me, that I had myself convinced of what I thought to be true, rather than what I felt to be true. I know I’m not the […]
Something I had read on the subway, somewhere between my daily journey from Brooklyn to Manhattan, some time in the constant changes of my self-transition. The thought lingered with me enough for me to note it down in my phone, and transfer it over into my notebook. My mind takes me back to it time and […]
A top pick from one of the most frequently asked questions, I’m going to say from age 3, “Who do you want to be when you grow up?” What’s wrong with who I am? Simple, yet unsaid. A lot of questions raced through my mind while listening to Shane Koyczan’s TED talk – a plea for more […]
It’s the little things you know, the ones you tend to take for granted, the ones that are so innately a part of your routine, of you, you tend to forget just those, just why they are, so routine, such an integral part of routine. A conversation about grad school took me back to last […]
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