I could see the sunlight through my closed eyes, I could see it in the warmth that I felt on face, the warm hues taking over my entire body. In the background I could hear my family talking, I do not remember what. It didn’t matter. I was happy just listening to their voices amidst […]
It was the first time I had killed a man. I did not see how it happened. Only heard the silence, of death. I knew it for certain. It was over. It was over the moment I had said it. It was the first time I had killed a man – with words. It’s years […]
Like most things nowadays, the thought for this post was prompted by a meme I came across the internet that read – I’ll never be able to lie to myself about all the shit I would do if I had time. Now let’s back up. When I was studying Shakespeare in school I had once […]
It’s personal. This year. It’s all about knowing. Yes. That’s the word for 2020. Knowing. The last decade began with me not knowing myself. Actually, I had no idea that I didn’t know myself. If you had asked me back then, I would have denied it quite vehemently. I would’ve said I know exactly who […]
“Learn to be independent.” Every time I face a challenge that seems like an impossible obstacle and my own voice sows a seed of self-doubt in mind, I hear my father’s unequivocal voice demanding that I be independent – in thought and action. And every time I tide over stronger, eventually figuring it all out […]
“I would’ve thought you are a writer.” I don’t know what it is that the girl in the chocolate store in Belgium saw in me, but it was more than I had ever seen in myself. She saw my truth, she saw me for who I was. Writing has been my singular truth long since […]
I hesitate to write, it’s a new feeling. My mind is blank, or maybe too cluttered? There is no prompt today, there hasn’t been for a while. I’ve been avoiding it. I shy away from words, I don’t know my story yet. Excuse. This is my story, every breathing moment. It’s the end I am […]
“It’s the possibility of having a dream come true that makes life interesting.” Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist It’s been over a decade from when I first read the book. I wouldn’t give myself the credit to fully appreciate it back then. I was such a different person, with such a different dream. Mine, but not […]
“Should I be worried?” you asked me. And I was quick to blurt out an emphatic NO. I didn’t want to lose you, I thought. But I never did have you, so what did I fear losing? Could anyone take away what I feel for you? Could anyone take away the beat my heart skips […]
This was a song that once brought me angst /Today that has flipped to a positive headline / Better days are here to come / Better days are here // What changed was not the world around me, but me.More precisely – my state of mind. There are days when you pour your heart and […]
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