Raised voices.I’m familiar with you.You show up every time a threat looms. Oh raised voices, I’m familiar with you. Masked by pangs of anger.Usually hiding, is a fear.Of rejection.Of hurt.Or the helplessness that ensues. Oh raised voices, I’m familiar with you. Scared of your identity.Or the threat to it, maybe.Are you so afraid of another […]
I sat down at 7 PM to do my morning pages. I could lie and say it had been a busy day (even on those days I’d most likely be wearing the old busyness badge slash facade), but it wasn’t. It wasn’t even a chaotic day. If you discount some last-minute curveballs, it was actually […]
I’m not.Just not enough.Not talented.Not knowledgeable.Not even informed.Not determined.Not disciplined.Not working hard enough.Not capable.Not deserving.Not worthy enough.No.Not good.I’m not even good enough. Right?This constant voice in my head.This is it.It has to be.It’s enough.To make me believe.I’m not enough.No not even good enough. A limiting belief.A self-fulfilling prophecy.A blindfold.A bias, confirming. The visa that didn’t […]
“As immigrants, we always feel an obligation to the opportunities we’re presented with, even if there are glaring red flags staring right at us. Be aware of this irrational gratitude.” – In saying this one thing Jinal Shah made me feel seen in a way I didn’t even know was invisible. This whole piece is […]
Oh the voices in my headThey say You’re not good enoughYou’re not enoughAre you sure? Oh I know youThe judgemental one Oh the voices in my headThey say You’re lazyYou’re arrogantSo slow Oh I know youCriticism personified Oh the voice in my headThey say You don’t work hardYou don’t deserve it Oh I know youDistrustful […]
I could see the sunlight through my closed eyes, I could see it in the warmth that I felt on face, the warm hues taking over my entire body. In the background I could hear my family talking, I do not remember what. It didn’t matter. I was happy just listening to their voices amidst […]
In this time of awakening, the only way for our society to heal and be whole is to face our truths – as they are, not as we’d like them to be.
I could feel it come up. Rise, higher. All I had to do was keep my iPhone aside. Maybe that would create a pause. It did. And it didn’t work. I continued to respond… Only I wasn’t really, responding. I was replying to an emotional reaction. A few weeks ago I wrote about what it […]
How do you hold it together When your whole world seems to fall apart And you barely have some mettle Let alone any remnants of steel You hold yourself together With tape and glue and scraps Any shard you can hold onto Every fragment of your heart Darkness is calling you And you’ve never been […]
“Our acceptance rate is only 8%”. The cold condensing tone of the admissions manager in Netflix’s latest series, Unorthodox, provoked a thought I had been continually feeling as I watched the episodes of this stunning take on conformities and subcultures I knew so little about. We are instinctively wary of anything different – it makes […]
