Bitten nailsRestless legs The walls are closing inIn my head The space fills upA million thoughts Future and pastA regret or a task I askNo answer An hour goes byThe walls seem closer Exhale I sayBut the breath is held in A whole monologue in my headYet not a syllable my tongue says Pressure buildsTightens […]
Raised voices.I’m familiar with you.You show up every time a threat looms. Oh raised voices, I’m familiar with you. Masked by pangs of anger.Usually hiding, is a fear.Of rejection.Of hurt.Or the helplessness that ensues. Oh raised voices, I’m familiar with you. Scared of your identity.Or the threat to it, maybe.Are you so afraid of another […]
I sat down at 7 PM to do my morning pages. I could lie and say it had been a busy day (even on those days I’d most likely be wearing the old busyness badge slash facade), but it wasn’t. It wasn’t even a chaotic day. If you discount some last-minute curveballs, it was actually […]
“As immigrants, we always feel an obligation to the opportunities we’re presented with, even if there are glaring red flags staring right at us. Be aware of this irrational gratitude.” – In saying this one thing Jinal Shah made me feel seen in a way I didn’t even know was invisible. This whole piece is […]
You have to write. What if I have nothing to say?What if it’s not good? Or good enough? Or as good as before?What if what I have to say doesn’t matter?No. I don’t want to say something. You don’t write because you want to say something. You write because you have something to say. Yes. […]
Oh the voices in my headThey say You’re not good enoughYou’re not enoughAre you sure? Oh I know youThe judgemental one Oh the voices in my headThey say You’re lazyYou’re arrogantSo slow Oh I know youCriticism personified Oh the voice in my headThey say You don’t work hardYou don’t deserve it Oh I know youDistrustful […]
I could see the sunlight through my closed eyes, I could see it in the warmth that I felt on face, the warm hues taking over my entire body. In the background I could hear my family talking, I do not remember what. It didn’t matter. I was happy just listening to their voices amidst […]
2020.A big year. Meant for big changes.The kind that takes you places. After all, it was the start of a new decade.Right? Personally, I thought I’d have all my answers this year.I’d named this year about knowing. Yet here I am, at the close.More questions than ever before. Questioning it all.From definitions [of productivity and […]
In this time of awakening, the only way for our society to heal and be whole is to face our truths – as they are, not as we’d like them to be.
I could feel it come up. Rise, higher. All I had to do was keep my iPhone aside. Maybe that would create a pause. It did. And it didn’t work. I continued to respond… Only I wasn’t really, responding. I was replying to an emotional reaction. A few weeks ago I wrote about what it […]
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